Showing posts from 2013

The Sound of Silence

I found an adoration chapel with perpetual adoration at Yonge and Steeles. I'm so excited because I have been craving spending more time alone, in peaceful reflection, in refreshing prayer, with Jesus...and now I can go right after work any day of the week!

When I went for the first time to this little chapel last week, I found it hard to concentrate at first, but I tried to really surrender this and started by meditating on a decade of the Rosary. I chose the wedding at Cana, where Mary says "Do whatever He tells you." I knew I really just had to pray about God's will and allowing whatever that is for me. (My boyfriend and I had just been talking about God's will the night was mostly me ranting about how I don't get it. How are you supposed to know what God is telling you?)

After the decade I read over the daily readings and really got a sense of the importance of hoping, for waiting on God and keeping joyful. I realized that is how God is our st…

The Ways People Grow

On Saturday I participated in a "Defund Abortion Rally."  We were a small group of only four that stood outside a Toronto MPP's office holding signs that read "Defund Abortion" and "Not From My Wallet," as well as handing out pamphlets that contained information about abortion funding in Canada. 

Before I continue, here are some of the facts about abortion in this country: 

"Abortion in Canada is not limited by criminal law but by the Canada Health Act. While some non-legal obstacles exist, Canada is one of only a few nations with no legal restrictions on abortion.

"Abortions in Canada are provided on request and funded by Medicare, to Canadian citizens and permanent residents (as with most medical procedures) in hospitals across the country. Abortion funding for hospitals comes from the various provincial governments (their overall health expenses are however paid for in part by the federal government). One-third of hospitals perform abortions…

All Your Creatures

I was so happy to look in the calendar and find out that it was St. Francis of Assisi's day today. I love St. Francis for his harmonious/humble spirit and love of nature.  He also wrote lovely prayers such as the famous "Make me a Channel of Your Peace." The following is an excerpt from another of his compositions: 
Praised be You my Lord with all Your creatures,especially Sir Brother Sun,Who is the day through whom You give us light.And he is beautiful and radiant with great splendour,Of You Most High, he bears the likeness.Praised be You, my Lord, through Sister Moon and the stars,In the heavens you have made them bright, precious and fair.Praised be You, my Lord, through Brothers Wind and Air,And fair and stormy, all weather's moods,by which You cherish all that You have made.The Indie/Christian band Gungor actually made a  lovely song inspired by this piece. I think the music they put it too really suits the peaceful, praising feeling of the prayer

I also have a pa…

If I had a million dollars...

....I would buy a villa in Italy, I'd have my own sewing room and a huge garden, I'd get a pet dog and cat and hedgehog and llama, I'd travel the world, I'd pay off all the debt of all my friends and family...but then I remember how every time I buy something that I really, really wanted and had put so much dependency on, I feel a sort of depression. I spent so much of my time as a kid thinking about and hoping for some material possession, but then when it is gained it's never quite as satisfying as hoped. Then one has to start obsessing over the next thing...but it never works; it is never is enough. The things that really fill that deep sense of longing are some completely other kind of thing...

 "My spirit abides among you; do not fear. For thus says the Lord of hosts; Once again, in a little while, I will shake the heavens and earth and the sea and the dry land; and I will shake all the nations, so that the treasure of all nations shall come , and I f…

Peace, Not Pieces

I  finally found a job! I've just finished my first couple of weeks at my first ever 9 to 5, Monday to Friday job. But not so long ago, for what seemed like weeks without end, I was unemployed, unable to find work and had too much time to think. I am a thinker; part of my personality is being a head-in-the-clouds, idealistic thinker. But all this time and lack of stimulating activity got my already over-analyzing  brain going in circles. I can only take so much solitary pondering time before I start having an "existential crisis." 

It is kind of a cliche. I've officially hit quarter life and I for some reason I can't stop myself from asking: why do I exist? What could my measly actions ever accomplish?  What is the meaning of life?

Just as I plunge into this mental vortex of doom and am sure that my life is falling apart, into little pieces, strange things begin happening. And by strange I mean uncanny, seemingly coincidental and possibly even miraculous. No matter…

Anxiety Turns to Joy

It is Lent. From Ash Wednesday to Easter, for 40 days Catholics are preparing to celebrate Christ's death and resurrection. Like Jesus' 40 days in the desert, we spend this time praying and  fasting so we can shed distractions and attune our focus on God.

Since I was a kid, I remember following the custom to "give something up" for lent. Back in my childhood days it was usually something like chocolate or tv shows. It was the tradition and I didn't think about the deeper meaning behind it much. As I got older, and began to take my faith more seriously, I started to realize that there is in fact a profound reason why we abstain from pleasures we are attached to: If there is a God that loves us so much that he died for us, the least we can do is work on getting over our candy addiction and redirect all those thoughts and energy to building a relationship with Him.

Of course, like Christ's time in the desert, the Lenten road is not always smooth; There are tempt…